Archive - May 2015

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I was In Natures’ Dream…
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Letting Go from 7,688 Miles Away…

I was In Natures’ Dream…

As I sat outside today for nearly all my days work, Nature proved once again to be nothing short of pure nectar for my soul. Today I was part of natures’ dream.

I sat amongst the grass and bees and flies and bugs and butterflies that fluttered by and all that came to say hello. The littlest of bees hovered and said Buzzzzzo! As he received my message of gratitude for all his work in the world, and then flew away. The grass welcomed my bare feet and promised it would rise again and that I was to feel the support all the while, tickling my toes. I watched the blades sway from side to side in a carefree fashion like a child running free. My dog rolled in the grass and then sat quietly sniffing the air while feeling the breeze blow through his hair and flapping ears.

I enjoyed the symphony of Aspens waving in the wind brought forth by this powerful and very live planet, relaying music of quietly woven intricacies that change is here, on the surface and at the core. This magnitude of engaging all my senses created my acute awareness of what is not seen with the visible eye, only felt and known. Her magical force, her mood, was my reminder of sanctuary where I was dressed in white, barefoot and had an overwhelming sense of peace from a past life regression I had from many years ago. She used the push of her voice and her breezy ways to instill a gentleness that suited her personality, knowing she could wipe me out if she so desired. She ushered falling leaves, falling blossoms and my hair all in the directions that moved her.

The sunshine accompanied the wind, by kissing my skin with her warmth and a bright glow. She made sure my exoskeleton, the one that keeps my veins, bones, tissues and vital organs protected was receiving her light-baring offer. I drank this stars gift and thanked her for being present. She continued to shine for me and was happy to share her rays with me, my dog and my growing veggies while providing us with natural essentials we need to be healthy. Thank you for the Vitamin D3 I whispered. She shone like the star she is and said you are welcome Julie.

The illusion of this so called life, the feeling of knowing I am on this planet as a visitor of sorts, an observer and of course the participant, is an innerverse joy this afternoon to every fiber of my being. Nature is where my head clears, my heart connects and I remember exactly who I am and a sense of serenity washes over me. This amazing lesson filled visit won’t last forever and then onto another journey I will go, willingly or unwillingly, it shall be… In the meanwhile, I emerge myself into nature and thank her profusely for caring and thanking her for her mercy today.

In Gratitude,

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Julie Tartak

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Letting Go from 7,688 Miles Away…

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Ty and his best friend from 3rd grade. GAP Year Adventures!

As my son gets ready to board one of three flights to go from Koh Tao, Thailand to Bangkok and then from Bangkok to Melbourne and then from Melbourne to New Zealand, one learns to let go even while they are hanging on.

What does that mean exactly?  It means that I still want his flight information while knowing I have no choice but to trust life will carry him from point A to point B.  This is no easy feat for an ex-overworrier and someone who was raised to hold on tightly!

However, I have learned over this last year, that I have no control, no choice and that life is to be lived and loved and enjoyed and that worrying doesn’t actually stop anything from happening or un-happening as he still cracked his head open surfing, got food poisoning and was seriously dehydrated.  He’s survived every night drinking with this best buddy and all their new friends. He has traveled from Australia to Thailand and met great people. He has managed to keep himself fed and sheltered. He became a Certified Scuba Diver.  My son is capable and knows when he needs to reach out for a little help. He has grown into a completely new person that I will get to meet in 3 weeks.

Sigh… Even though the over-worrying has ended, the concerns remain.  As his Mom, as my brothers sister, as an aunt, as all my parents daughter, and to many a friend, I realize that no amount of talking, no amount of questions, no amount of anything  will  ever halt what is to be.  So grateful for my instincts, occasionally peppered with Mamabear WTF’s?, and OMG’s, and OH NO’s, and yet always the energetic connection and my heartfelt love for this kid transcends space and time. He knows. I know. We are connected.

Ahhh, the umbilical cord never really severs, it just stretches 7,688 Miles and beyond!

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Two years ago, the Christmas sillies! Love this kid to the moon and back!

 

Signing out,

Forever a Mama,

Julie

 

 

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